One of the greatest songs about love and addiction.
“Well, I sure thought I had her. Lord, I know she had me. What I thought was heaven is just falling debris. Well, I may not be crazy but I got one hell of a start. Somebody pick up my pieces. I think I’m fallin’ apart.. and the fall to the bottom could tear you apart. And they’ll be pickin’ up pieces of you and your heart.” – Willie Nelson
“Finish what you start.” is a good saying. I agree with it. Last year when I released the album Joyless Pleasure I promised to go song by song and tell you the backstory and technical details. Honestly, I got cold feet realizing I would have to reveal more of myself than I may want to. This blog is useless if I don’t add a personal touch and although it’s 80% music tech it’s music itself that’s important right? In addition I’ve had more than a few readers ask I continue explaining each song. I’m already 6 songs into my next album and want to preview some of it soon. Therefore it’s now or never to get into the details of the remaining 8 songs on Joyless Pleasure. The first two songs are covered here: Modern and We Will Get Wicked.
Darkling Lullaby. If I could have written a song like this when I was 17 years old I would have. I didn’t have the skill or wisdom at that time so I wrote it now. It a lullaby to a beutifull young girl who is on top of the world. She breaks hearts. The song is from the scorned and obsessed. One day the girl will be old and struggle like everyone else. When I listen to the song sometimes I picture a father singing it to a daughter in her bedroom. It’s February so maybe this is fine for a Valentine’s day playlist. Especially if you’re single.
The vocals were written in one take but I changed the last verse a few days later. The main synth is a layer of Fairlight CMI choral samples and a Korg Poly 800 arpeggiated. There’s lots of Altiverb reverb washing over the entire track. The kick is a Jomox Mbase 01. The song took about a week to finish. Be sure to check out the Dom Dumoulin remix on the Joyless Pleasure Remixed album (link). The photos used for the Youtube video still (above) are indeed yours truly. I used to climb the slanted tree to the right of me in the photo almost everyday. Behind me you can see the stream that ran through my front yard.
“I am sorry for what the world will do to you. Darkling I am sad to tell you the truth. Love is a lie like a butterfly. Dear I wish it was different for you. You will cry like everyone cries. I am sorry it’s the truth. Darkling I am sad for for you. My sweet Darkling you will cry. You will cry and cry.” – The Horrorist
People who know me personally know I’ve been going through one of life’s tragedies lately. My father past away last month. I can’t begin to talk about that but the event has brought me closer to friends. Things and weaknesses I used to tell my dad need a new ear and I was glad to discover I found a few willing to listen. Besides the fact that this video for the Gorillaz song Melancholy Hill features wonderful NYC neon signs it the lyrics remind me of kindness I am receiving these days.
“Up on melancholy hill
There’s a plastic tree
Are you here with me
Just looking out on the day
Of another dream
Well you can’t get what you want
But you can get me
So let’s head out to sea
‘Cause you are my medicine
When you’re close to me
When you’re close to me”