I have a friend who is a psychiatrist. She’s an middle aged woman born in Eastern Europe and she treats some of the hardest cases out there such as prostitutes and heroin addicts. We call her “The Oracle” because her method is to only tell the patient what he/she needs to know at any certain given moment. She’s quite smart and funny and I always enjoy getting a chance to speak with her.
A few years ago when my music was mostly of the hard, angry, screaming type I gave her a CD. A few weeks later she was visiting my family and she pulled me aside and told me something extremely profound. She said, “You know Oliver every song you write, you write about yourself.”. Over the following weeks I studied my own songs and realized she was right on. When I was singing about hate and destruction I was really just expressing how much I hated myself, how angry I was at myself. Ever since my eyes were opened I look at kids making angry music as some of the most wounded members of society.
For well adjusted adults this is pretty clear stuff but for someone like myself to come to a wakening point it’s thrilling. My own music has improved dramatically now that I can write from a different perspective. I can tell my own story without hiding behind a veil of an anonymous third person. An effect of my new perspective is new music is far more serious.
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